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Wow, almost 2 years since I've written in  this journal.  I've gained friends and lost friends. Gained and lost a job. Gained weight. Lost a little. Found out earlier this year one of our dogs, Sadie, has lymphoma, and probably won't live past Thanksgiving. I'm still have never been in love and it's starting to get me really down. I miss going to church, of having a relationship with God.  I miss the feeling of being even remotely happy with my life. I still live at home, with my parent, at age 25 almost 26. I have no idea what I want out of life. I would love to leave Michigan for better job opportunities and possibly love. But I would need to go to school because jumping from retail job to retail job isn't cutting it, especially in Michigan. I need a better car. I need a better life, I'm just lost about what to do. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep because I'm so frustrated with my life.  I wish one of my best friends didn't live states away from me.

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so after a long and mostly boring drive that took about 7 hours i arrived in marquette and am with my bestie emily! my ass fell asleep like 3 times on the drive and i was unbelievably hungry and had to pee really bad even though i stopped like 3 time on the way up here. but as i was driving alone US 2, i kind of understood why she goes to school here. its  beautiful. even when its rainy. cuz  theres fog off the lake. its a bit chilly up here too though. :)
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Top 10

so my friend emily challenged me to name my top 10 hot guys i would love to own....and it took me awhile but here it is.

1. Ben Barnes
2. Gerard Butler
3.  Viggo Mortensen
4. Jeff Hardy
5. Kellan Lutz
6. Charlie Hunnam
7. Johnny Depp
8. Dane Cook
9. Tom Felton
10. James & Oliver Phelps- they're twins and i can choose just one!

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do it friends!

1) If you could go on a date with any fictional character without consequences, who would it be?

2) Who was your first confusing fictional crush?

3) What talent do you wish you had?

4) If I wrote you a fic, what would it be?

5) Favorite weird fandom term or internet meme?

6) What was the last book you read?

7) What zodiac sign are you?

8) If you had to create an original character for your favourite fandom, what would they look like?

9) What squicks you?

10) If you saw one of my novels in a bookstore, would you buy it?

11) What is your favorite song (YouTube links are groovy)?

12) Playstation, Nintendo or Xbox?

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14) Weirdest thing to ever happen to you?

15) Tell me one normal, somewhat boring fact about you.

16) Do you have any random bishoujo/bishounen lounging in your closet?

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?

18) What was your first impression of me?

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22) What color socks are you wearing?

23) Black or blue ink?

24) Favourite underloved fandom?

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

26) Make up your own!

27) One place you hate to go?

28) Do you believe in robots... in disguise?

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

30) Do you swear a lot?

31) Biggest pet peeve in fiction?

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

33) Do you read romance novels?

34) Make up your own!

35) Do you believe in faeries?

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
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been a looooong time since ive updated. i just havent had anything important to wirte about. the hott guy sitch didnt turn out anything like i hoped it would. ive been all but abandoned by someone who i considered one of my closest friends and they dont really seem to care all that much. so thats a little depressing. but hanging with shannon and koala last saturday was mass fun. i just need to figure out what to do with my life and decide if i really want to become a manager at my job or not. sure its a pay raise and i get to boss other people around but i dont know if i want to be stuck there for the rest of my life. plus id like to find a boytoy that treats me with respect and doesnt think im easy just cuz i show off the girls sometimes. but on the hopeful side im possibly going to visit my bethany this july and emily(maybe). i hope i can do both. plus the whole karen doesnt know how shes gonna pay for her trip to OK is stressful. sometimes i wish i had a time machine so i can go back to when times were more fun and i didnt have to grow up.
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so i figured i may as well update and what better way then to tell you a little drama about me and a hott guy..... its not a long story , but theres this guy who works across the hall from where i work in the mall and im always catching him watching me while im working and it doesnt hurt that hes hot, and my friend finally went over and told him i thought he was hot and he told her to tell me to come over and say hi.......i havent yet but i will soon.....................
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    Before He Cheats~ Carrie Underwood